Wishing you the best on becoming an ex-exJW.
Don't think of yourself as disfellowshipped or disassociated from this community. If you want to come back and find out what's going on in the wacky JW world, you'll get more interesting info here than anything you'd find on JW.bORG. Or if you want to come back and testify that your life after WT is going wonderfully, we love to hear those stories!